I’m pissed off for many reasons.
It could be because I had a tumultuous break-up from a seven year relationship 3 months ago, or, perhaps, because I lost my cat Nephe which I gave so much of my time and love to.
I could be angry because I’m now forced to live in the section of town with the highest crime rate—right next to the $35 dollar a night, Horizon “Whore-Risen” hotel (that, according to the owner, happens to be “free of bed-bugs”, thank you very much!)
I become rabid when I hear the sound of a text message, thinking it might be from my new boyfriend, only to be greeted by a Bible verse text message from my mother. This has been happening every morning for the past month and I don’t know how to handle it.
I could be angry because I have to go to a Starbucks or McDonalds to access the internet or because I lost one of my jobs a month ago. I could be angry because someone stole my car yesterday.
All of this has occurred within the last 3 months. I have many reasons to be enraged right now, but I choose to simply be pissed off. Did I “cause” any of these misfortunes to happen to me? Am I getting what Karma must issue out to me? No, I honestly haven’t done anything to deserve this, other than be born and step on the occasional crack. Karma doesn’t exist. It’s simply called, “Life just sucks, deal with it”.
I just need one more bad thing to happen to me for this to be perfect. Perhaps my boyfriend of just over a month will break up with me tonight…or, I’ll be diagnosed with cancer or maybe I’ll become paralyzed. I guess the options for pain and destruction are still unlimited—even if your life already seems to suck.