Saturday, August 25, 2012

My Alpine Dreams! (pictures)

I am very sorry if you've sent me a message or wrote a comment and I didn't respond! Please know that I appreciate your kindness and continued support. I've been away for a couple weeks. During part of that time, I went on a little backpacking excursion with my Father and his friend.  Here are a few photos from our adventure!

Tuesday, August 14, 2012

Positive Thoughts

I apologize for my last blog post. I was very negative.  I really do have a lot to be thankful for. Sure, I don't have a car right now, but things could be worse.

My boyfriend took me to a viewpoint at Mt. St. Helens a week ago and here are a couple pics. Life is short, enjoy it!

Negative Thoughts....

 I’m pissed off for many reasons.

It could be because I had a tumultuous break-up from a seven year relationship 3 months ago, or, perhaps, because I lost my cat Nephe which I gave so much of my time and love to.

 I could be angry because I’m now forced to live in the section of town with the highest crime rate—right next to the $35 dollar a night, Horizon “Whore-Risen” hotel (that, according to the owner, happens to be “free of bed-bugs”, thank you very much!)

I become rabid when I hear the sound of a text message, thinking it might be from my new boyfriend, only to be greeted by a Bible verse text message from my mother.  This has been happening every morning for the past month and I don’t know how to handle it.

I could be angry because I have to go to a Starbucks or McDonalds to access the internet or because I lost one of my jobs a month ago. I could be angry because someone stole my car yesterday.

All of this has occurred within the last 3 months. I have many reasons to be enraged right now, but I choose to simply be pissed off.   Did I “cause” any of these misfortunes to happen to me?  Am I getting what Karma must issue out to me? No, I honestly haven’t done anything to deserve this, other than be born and step on the occasional crack. Karma doesn’t exist. It’s simply called, “Life just sucks, deal with it”. 

I just need one more bad thing to happen to me for this to be perfect.  Perhaps my boyfriend of just over a month will break up with me tonight…or, I’ll be diagnosed with cancer or maybe I’ll become paralyzed. I guess the options for pain and destruction are still unlimited—even if your life already seems to suck.