It could be because I had a tumultuous break-up from a seven
year relationship 3 months ago, or, perhaps, because I lost my cat Nephe which
I gave so much of my time and love to.
I could be angry
because I’m now forced to live in the section of town with the highest crime
rate—right next to the $35 dollar a night, Horizon “Whore-Risen” hotel (that,
according to the owner, happens to be “free of bed-bugs”, thank you very much!)
I become rabid when I hear the sound of a text message,
thinking it might be from my new boyfriend, only to be greeted by a Bible verse
text message from my mother. This has
been happening every morning for the past month and I don’t know how to handle
it.
I could be angry because I have to go to a Starbucks or McDonalds
to access the internet or because I lost one of my jobs a month ago. I could be
angry because someone stole my car yesterday.
All of this has occurred within the last 3 months. I have
many reasons to be enraged right now, but I choose to simply be pissed off. Did I
“cause” any of these misfortunes to happen to me? Am I getting what Karma must issue out to me?
No, I honestly haven’t done anything to deserve this, other than be born and
step on the occasional crack. Karma doesn’t exist. It’s simply called, “Life
just sucks, deal with it”.
I just need one more bad thing to happen to me for this to
be perfect. Perhaps my boyfriend of just
over a month will break up with me tonight…or, I’ll be diagnosed with cancer or
maybe I’ll become paralyzed. I guess the options for pain and destruction are
still unlimited—even if your life already seems to suck.
